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Name: Jake
Birthday: 5/2/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: Running, Jumping, Chasing my tail, hanging out with friends, talking on the net, kicking ponies, mashed potatos, sniffing laundry detergant, poking my sisters, the harlem shuffle, my youth group, my friends, my family, chocolate milk, the dollar menu, baseball, Relient K, and ultimately my father in heaven...
Expertise: Running, jumping, chasing my tail, chess(sorta), swimming. Driving golf carts, and I also do a sermon as often as I can at mine or local churches in the area...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  Narrowroad02
Member Since:
5/19/2004
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| Ah xanga, how I remember thee... I shall posteth on you.
Nearly a year later here I sit, posting on good ol xanga. How life has changed! The things that God can do in so little time to a person are amazing. My heart has been on this crazy roller coaster of ups, downs, tests, and trials. God consistently teaches me and moves me forward in my walk with him. He never let's us go... Even through the hardest of storms, He still holds on to us. We doubt Him. We Fear. We question, and yet He remains. I've created a lot of new friendships and met some wonderful people. I've gained a whole new love for my family. It's hard to be away from them. I've gained new vision and hold on to a hope that God has a plan for this lost generation. Don't you worry...He will save the day 
I pray that God is helping you love him, to whoever is reading this, please pray the same for me. Maybe I'll post again some time soon.
Jake
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| Dear me : I can't believe you're writing a post on xanga... Ya know, I've lived my whole life waiting for something. Always waiting. Eager to step forward and do something not so dramatically new with myself.... I never took time to savor the moment, all I wanted was to move on to the next one.... For those of you who do not know, I'm heading off to Texas to a ministry school out of Acquire The Fire in just a few short months and am preparing to take a brand new step toward my future in the Lord and in ministry, not knowing when I'll be back or even if I'm coming back for that matter... After much contemplation between staying here and getting a degree or going to Texas and taking on the call the Lord has set before me, I finally just stuck it out, and made a decision to do what I've known I am suppose to do all along. It's insane to sit here and think about everything that's happened in the 17 short years of my life. I've seen people come, I've seen people go, and some people I've glanced eyes with and never seen again.... I've had a couple different jobs, had a couple different heart breaks, and even managed to run into a school bus...somehow....and as exciting as it is to anticipate what God could possibly have in store for me, I didn't think it would be this heartbreaking when I finally came to the realization that I was leaving my life and everything I've known behind... So many people just go off and say their going to "pursue the calling on their life" and somehow come back and find themselves right where they started... For awhile that was my biggest fear, I didn't want to be one of them. But the Lord has shared with me, that even though you may be called, he wants us to go through preparation. You can't go out into battle unless you've got your armor on, am I right? That's sort of how I view this trip, a time of preparation, a time to put on some armor, and there is no doubt in my mind that before I know it I will be doing the things I've always dreamed of, the dreams that God has given me... I don't want to ask myself questions like... "How much money am I gonna make? Where will I be when I'm 23? Will I meet my wife there?" I've come to a point to where I just don't want to care... If I can please the lord with this time, then truly my life is a successful one, and the mystery is what makes it worth living... So here's to all who have contributed to making me the person I am. I'm sure there will be nights like this while I'm gone, that I think about every single one of you and the memories we've shared. Here's to you who're feeling lost, and not knowing where life is taking you..."In all your ways acknowlege him, and he will direct your path." Finally, here's to you who I loved with all my heart...Your face I will remember the most. I pray that God will lead you and guide you to where you must go. I pray that he will always remind you of where your faith lies...and for you I shed a special tear, knowing that I must leave you behind, thank you for showing me what it means to love with passion...Fare thee well until I see you again....wherever that may be.... -Jake- | | |
| In a small room it began, an unforgotten place where love came in disguise. Can you feel the butterflies? Starting with small talk, and crafty words to hide his true identity. “I can hear his voice crawling into the core of what make me, me.” Small talk became a date, a date became a passion, a passion became lies. Can you feel the butterflies? “Now I’ve lost my core, something I lived without before, I can’t take it anymore. Please come back to me, forget the past let’s just be…we...” I wish it were so, the you, you’ve become, is a girl I don’t know. So many questions define my misery, infecting the once untouchable me. I’ve changed my ways for the sake of your heart, a move I wish I never made so I would not be destined to tear it apart. Does she know the secret tears that I cry?” Can you feel the butterflies? “Now I must leave, to a place where I can no longer be torn in two, a place where I can no longer be hurt by you. I’ll meet someone there. I’ll forget the heart break that can only be formed by your disgusting stare.” “And I will go the opposite way, we’ll both move on, as our new pottery is formed from our worlds of clay.” “Never again will I fall for it’s disguise.” “Never again will I worry about your lies.” …Goodbye butterflies… | | |
| Hello one and all..... so over the past couple months since my birthday( my last post) not too much has happened......
Terra begins yet again tomorrow......I think it would be hillarious to just charge into class the first day with a stereo and the chicken song and start frantically dancing the chicken dance... I wonder wether my instructor would be open to the idea of a student going crazy in his or her class room or would he/she call security up right away..."Security! We have a man up here doing the Chicken dance!! Get your squad in here right away, this is code red!!!!" lol, then I'd jump out the window and give the peace sign on my way out... hahaha, that'd be an awesome way to kick off the year...
...They could keep the stereo...
On a different note....The Fair is this week, starting tomorrow!!! Be sure to stop out at the turnaround tent if you plan to go, we're giving away glow sticks!
So, lately works been going really well. I love the people I work with. I mean, we work and all, but it's actually fun. I feel bad for people who go to work everyday with absolutely no motivation to do anything. In my opinion, You have to work, so don't complain, make the best of it.
Lastly.... Life's been hecktic. It's amazing how things suddenly start changing. In over one weeks time I feel like my life has taken a complete make over. I'm starting to finally realize what it really means to have FAITH in God. A faith that things will work out for the best cause it's in his hands. Faith in his promises. It's unbelievably hard, just the patience and putting aside your own will for his. Faith is being willing to let go of something you gave your whole heart to and making him your heart instead, knowing that he wants something so much more for you and wants to give you it, but is just asking you to take a season of faithfullness to him. God's made me realize one word. It's not waiting, it's true SURRENDER. Even Jesus sat in the garden before his crucifixtion and surrendered what he wanted for the sake of what God wanted and it all came out for the best. That's faith, surrendering yourself to him that he may do with your life what he wants...
My prayer is to gain that virtue called Patience, to have faith in God... my prayer is that God will see my obedience and willingness to sacrifice my own life for him.... I pray for surrender...
-Jake- | | |
| Today, May second, third most important day in
american history, next to Christmas and Oj Simpsons sentencing trial,
my birthday. What do people do on their birthdays? They have parties,
they get presents, they enjoy the company of friends and
relatives...some retards even go to Skate World to celebrate... As for
me, I go to school all day and in between classes I make a list of a
bunch of people who have impacted my life and how. So here it is...
My Dad... You've taught me what it means to be a gentle, loving, yet courageous God fearing man.
My Mom... You've taught me how to look to God in all cirsumstances
of life and have loved me even in the hardest times and helped me along
with my future.
My Sisters... You may not know it but I pray for every single one of
you individually on my way to work and school every morning, that God
protects you in those times that I can't. You've taught me a lesson in
not thinking about myself but looking out for the well being of others.
My brothers... You've given me a reason to be the best example of a
brave christian who doesn't look to the world but to God for strength,
and have placed in me a desire to live a better life so you can tell
others what a great man I was and how you would like to be just like me
one day.
Ally... You're my very best friend, and over the past year and a
half, I can honestly say if I ever trusted anyone with my own life in
this world next to my family, it would be you.You are my beautiful, and
live next to Jesus christ in my heart...
Colby... I look to you for laughter and fun with games to escape
from the other worries in my life, I know I can come talk to you and
know life goes on, and instead of worring about it, make a joke out of
it.
Fili... I've known you a while. And over the courseof time I've
known you I've sat in a hot tub with you, through an ice ball at a car
with you. I've stayed up late talking about....KIA WEBB...with you,
I've sat in Mcdonalds with you talking about retarded barbies and the
Kevin Max table. I've even had the chance to smack your butt not
realizing you were wearing nothing but boxers. What girl can say that?
You're a good friend, and thanks for the good times.
Sam... I admire your strength of mind and intellect. I know if I
have any question you'll give me a solid answer without beating around
the bush, you'll just give it to me straight, so thanks for the good
advice even when I didn't like you for it.
Kelly... Weird to think I've known you for like 2 or 3 years now.
You've awakened the child inside of me and shown me that life isn't all
about school and work, it's about candy land and being stupid with
people you care about...
Jamie... You pee on your dad, that's got to be the most impacting
thing I've ever known you for. I bet your dad thought it was pretty
impacting too. lol. Thanks for being my dawg.
Aaron... Who else can I make random hillarious conversation with
than you? We work off eachother well, and I hope that things with you
and Emily turn out well. I only have one other thing to say
....Huh...... Shut your mouth Haaarold!!....Go Make me a sandwich
woman!!"
Karen. I share a birthday with you, and I'm sure this thought has
crossed through your mind today too, whose impacted my life and why.
Well, even though I haven't talked to you lately, I miss conversating
with you on the phone and just having someone to go to when I had
nothing to do. Cause I know you did that to me too!! 
Bryan Robles... You've been a good mentor and a friend, Thanks for
teaching me along with everyone else in the youth group everything you
know about life and christianity. From Who's Driving Your Car, to, telling us the good morals and lessons in life. You've done well.
Owen. I've got two things to say to you... Holding hands leads to
sex... and Jesus our Garbage man. lol. You taught me a lesson in living
rightiously and how to be patient when it comes to God's timing. I've
enjoyed playing heroscape with you and I miss the days of turnaround
set up and tear down. Thanks.
And finally to my father in heaven...
God... Where am I suppose to start? You're my source of existence,
if only I could give you even a portion of everything you've given me
then I could call myself a better man. You're my everything, my whole
life. One thing that seperates me from this world is the fact that I
have a hope in you. And I can't wait until that day where I can stare
at you face to face and know that even though sometimes I sinned and
hurt you, I can look forward to the rest of all time in your presence,
without fear or condemnation to hell. I Love you more than I ever have
before, and on this 17th year that you've given me, my vow is to always
hold true to that love for you...
Thank you all for supporting me, to make me the person I am today, I
look forward to more memories and coming back to this site next year
and doing the very same thing all over again. Have a good year...
-Jake-
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